Lord,
My heart feels like it's going to explode. I feel like you're growing my heart towards adoption. I've been reading and researching. Many of the countries I've looked into are currently closed or I am not eligible because of being on the AD and having PPD. But I came across the Philippines....
I know you know my heart - you created me this way. But I don't want to run ahead of You. I know that if this is Your will, You will create a sincere longing in Phil's heart as well. I want Your Will above all, and I even hesitate to write my desires, but I feel foolish for not telling you my desires when You already know them and You know my heart wants what You want most. So here they are, Lord...
I want another baby... soon. I want Phil to feel a sense of urgency and love come from within. I want to experience the "expecting" and "announcing" and "receiving" a new child through adoption similar to the births of my other children. I want my children to experience another sibling and my family to expand and love another child. I like it that the Filipino culture would be receptive of our Christianity. I want to call the agency in our state and ask questions and get information. But mostly I want Phil to want this independently from me. If this is what YOU want, Lord, please grow his heart in a way that only You can. I trust You and know that You know what is best for our family. Please help me to be patient.
Lord Jesus, may I have another baby?
Not my will, but Yours.
Amen.
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